Happy Merdeka!

(DIY Malaysian flags by Sharmila HK)

Happy Merdeka, everyone!

Last night, I was supposed to join Joe Najib and friends for Merdeka eve teh tarik session at Pelita SS2 but around 10ish, Princess started to show some signs of sleepiness so we decided to not go out and watch a movie at home instead. But Isaac started to feel a bit sad that he didn't get to see fireworks so hubs said, "Never mind, lets just go out. I will take you to this secret spot to watch fireworks. I used to go there when I was young and free and handsome. Nobody knows of this hidden spot but me and my friends".

Isaac and I were like, "Wah, what an honor. Cannot wait to see this hidden spot daddy has been hiding from us. So exciting!".

So on the way there, Princess fell asleep but we were still looking forward to see this "exciting" little spot hubs was boasting about. We got there at 11.45pm, parked the car, set our tripod, took coupla pictures of the beautiful hilltop and stood there anxiously.

12.00am, no sign of fireworks.

"It is midnight already, daddy. How come no fireworks yet?".

"Wait, your watch is early. It is coming."

12.01am, still no fireworks but we could hear the sound of fireworks from a distance. A few seconds later, we heard people screaming, counting down, 5, 4, 3, 2, MERDEKAAAAAAA!

"Honey, are you sure this is the right place? I think, we are not facing KL."

"Yes, daddy. I think we are at wrong place."

"Of course I am sure. Just wait. Sometimes people's time differs. KLCC is just right in front of us", hubs pointing into the dark. I saw some condos and some low rise buildings but no KLCC. I looked back, trying to think where we were and I realised Bangsar was at the back of us and TM building was also at the back. Which means, KL was at the back of the hill.

12.04, still no fireworks.

"You never came here to watch fireworks right, honey?".

"No, but I just thought I will look cool-er if I said I did. Plus it s a hilltop in the middle of Bangsar. I never thought it could go so wrong."

"Its okay, lets just take pictures of us watching our imaginary fireworks and then we can go to Telawi and have supper."

HAHAHAHA! Pity my uncle husband. Trying so hard to compete with his cool wife. But I had to give it to him laa, he really looked very confident, convinced us about his 'little hidden spot' and all. Not bad lah.

I wrote a long post about Merdeka, Independence and how I want my beautiful children to see Merdeka Day. But I think I will save that post for another day.

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan, everyone. I sincerely wish everyone is able to feel this love I feel for our country. Whatever you are fighting for, please always remember that this is HOME. And we do not harm a place we call home. 

Happy Merdeka! Towards a #BetterMalaysia

Love and light,

Yan Lim

My friends are my support system

I know we all wish there are two bibles. One, on how to raise our children right. Two, how to make our marriage (sex & love life) work with all the energy, time & effort already spent on the children (and work).

I always think it’s so important for moms to share all of our experiences with each other - the good, the bad, and the ugly. It’s why I am so glad that I have a group of girlfriends whom are also in the same ship as I am - you know, the baby is unwell I need to take emergency leave but I am afraid boss is gonna yell at me or how-the-f do I know if my baby is full, she keeps crying non stop! That kinda stuff - and much more!

I share most of my personal stuff with them. Of course there are some issues that I'd keep for myself - my personal marriage issues for instant. I try to handle our marriage issues ourselves. I chose to do this because I do not want outsiders to influence on how I truly feel about the love of my life. And of course its a matter of respect. I would not want my husband to go around sharing the bad stuff about me to his friends. So I should not do it either.

But my girlfriends and I share all the tips and tricks in raising our children. We have this groupchat that we named 'SUPER MUMMIES'. Such narcissists, we are :)

I just happen to think by having such support system, we parents can find some reassurance knowing that we’ve all been there, and most of us do pull through it. That we’re not the only ones. And indirectly, by knowing that we are not such bad parents after all - we have a peace of mind and able to put in time and energy, as tough as it is, as tired as we are, and commit to working our relationship out. In the end, the marriage will be stronger for it.

Lunch Date

Hubs and I have been going on lunch dates almost everyday lately. We used to do this a lot those days, when we used to work together. Or even after both of us left Uptrend. But it stopped for a while when I joined my previous workplace.

I love going out trying new places during lunch. To me, that one hour break is my cooling off period. I need to go out else I will feel so restless.

So for the past one week, we have been going around trying out new makan places. And if we have some extra time, we drop by at some random warehouse sale lol

#StayBeautiful

Y

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

I miss you, grandma.

Grandma,

When I was growing up, I wanted to to inspire people. I wanted to put a million smiles in people's hearts. I wanted to help people to remember the important things in life - love, connection and gratitude.

Now that I have grown up, I wonder whether or not I have done any of these. I wonder if I can still do it. I wonder if the world is still as beautiful as I saw it. I wonder if humans are still expecting to smile as I expected.

Most importantly, I wonder if I have ever made you proud.

I miss you, grandma.

Love,
Yayang
November 20, 2009 (a year after you went away)

Happy 5th birthday, my son!

Dear my precious son,

Today is your birthday. You are 5 years old and obviously you are a big boy now. Oh dear, sometimes I can't accept the fact that you are growing so fast. Who will listen to me talking rubbish when you have grown old enough to understand that what I share with you is nothing but rubbish?

It's been a while since I last wrote you a letter. I guess work has been occupying me. And I do realise that I spend less time with you for these past months. I often leave you with Daddy. I am so sorry. I really am. I thought that I needed to do all this so that you can have your favourite food, nice branded outfits and a fancy birthday party. Although, I still think that it is true.

Dear Isaac,

Today, I actually do not know what to write but I must write something. So that when you are able to read all these letters that I write to you, you will smile and come to me to give me a warm hug and nice kiss. I like it when you do that.

Like last night after I finished reading you bedtime story and you hugged me so tight and kissed me on my lips. I'd trade everything in to have that moment every night before sleep.

There are a lot of things that I learnt from onyang (your late great grandmother) when I was growing up which I want to pass on to you. And those are the things that keep me going and giving me strength to raise you up to become a good person. Like how I became (at least I do feel that I am a good person, by heart no matter what people might think about what type of person I have grew up to become).

Dear Isaac,

I want so many things for you. Everyday, I pray to God that He will make things easier for you in your life.

I want you to live with hospitality so that you will learn how to fight. To fight for yourself. To fight for the people that you care. And to fight for the people that are around you.

I want you to live with tolerance so that you will learn to be more patient. At least, to be more patient than me. Patience is very important my son. It makes you appreciate things that you've achieved after the effort you made.

I want you to live with encouragement. So that you will become confident. These past weeks, you keep telling people who tell you not to talk too much that the reason you talk a lot is because you want to become a lawyer. Like my Mummy, you said. And when people tell you that lawyers can not make a lot of money, you will encounter them back "then how come my mummy has so much money?". How adorable. See, that's what I meant by confident. You are always so confident even when others are not. But, remember my son. You can be confident but never over confident. That will kill our confidence and leave us with nothing.

I want you to live with praise so that you will learn to appreciate. Believe me, my son, this is very important.

I want you to live with approval so that you will learn to like yourself.

I want you to live with acceptance so that you will learn to find love in this world. Oh by the way, I just learnt last night that love isn't a feeling. Love is an ability and Auntie Bwooie says that love is also a choice. That, you will learn in couple more years.

Dear Isaac,

Mummy wants you to live with sharing so that you will learn to be generous.

I want you to live with honesty and fairness so that you will learn what truth and justice are. After all, lawyer is what you want to become, right?

I want you to live with security so that you will learn to have faith in yourself and in those around you. And to answer your question this morning, no there is no ghost my darling. Really.

I want you to live in friendliness so that you will learn that world is a nice place to live.

I want you live with serenity so that you will learn to have peace of mind.

These are what I want for you. Now tell me what do you want apart from the expensive kiddo laptop?

Love,
Mummy.

You were and are one of my favourite people in this world and your demise hurts me as much as it does to him

I am still moaning and grieving over the demise of one of my favorite people in this world, Yasmin Ahmad.

Whatever she liked, I like. Sensei, I will miss you dearly.

In the loving memory of my Yasmin Ahmad, here is one of her favorite poems;

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

Better

This picture was self taken at 4 in the morning; preparing for our big event together in 2006

I feel so in love today. Honey sent me few love songs. Just like the good old days when he used to email me romantic love songs and then printed out the lyrics on beautiful papers. Just to make me feel better.

So what I am trying to say is, everything that he makes, makes it better. And no matter what the days, with him here, it's better. Period.

Poladroid

A friend of mine introduced me to http://poladroid.net where you can download the software and start editing your pictures to poladroid format. Lovely kan?

Here are some I wanna share with you;
















Try this, sweets. It's fun :)

Being married

Obviously, before we got married Honey knew that he was getting married to a juicy, smart, funny, loving, wild and adventurous girl. And I am sure he knew what was he getting into.

That is why, Honey has given me the green light to join the travel group to Bali sometime before year end (I can't confirm the time yet, waiting for Lyn to come back to Malaysia). And, Honey has also given me the gold baton to pay a trip to Dee Anna baby in Sydney in August or September.

That doesn't include all the nights out that I have been enjoying, at least once a month.

Oh, did I tell you that he wouldn't mind if I want to join my friends for drinks and a lil bit of dancing session after work as long as they can fetch me home safely?

Being married doesn't mean that you need to stay at home, take care of your kids and just spread your legs whenever your husband gets turned on after seeing a pair of big boobs or bloody firm ass. Being married doesn't mean that you have to forget all your friends whom you've known for a good decade. Being married doesn't mean that you need to end your life.

Being married means; you've got to enjoy your life like you have never did. To be loved, to be taken care of and to be understood by your beloved partner. And most important is to be able to be your own self!

This is me. I know what am I doing. My hubby knows what is he doing. So who are you to judge?

My understatement

I tend to worry about too many things. I get worried too easily. I worry about everything around me. So I thought it was okay when I got very moody for one tiny thing and then started crying for nothing. It prolonged for few months until I realised that I might suffer from post-natal depression. It was bad. It was the worse time in my life. I was young and I was not ready. But no one could be as lucky as I was. I had one thing that others didn't have. My husband.

I have the most perfect husband on this whole planet earth. He has always been there for me. Even when I started shouting at him for something that I did wrong, he will just swallow his saliva and smiled weakly at me. I was angry all the time. I was sure that it was just because of tiredness, only to discover that I needed help.

It's been few years now. I hope that when we are both ready to get pregnant again, I won't need to start worrying about this all over again. God bless us.

My hubby is a VERY lucky man!

Daniel wrote about '8 traits that Men find attractive in a Woman' and I couldn't help but to comment on that.

I mean, if you can see me now, I am grinning like an idiot lol

I will just make it short here.

These are 8 traits that he wrote. I am just going to list down the 8 points. If you wanna know how the hell did that guy write that makes me grinning like this, go to his site!

HER SMILE - I know and very sure that I have a very sweet smile. I didn't make my own 'masuk bangkul angkut sendiri' conclusion but I heard that from many men and women too.

HER FEMINITY - For Pete's sake, I am very feminine. Really! Having more dresses than t-shirts and pants is considered feminine right? Right?

HER VOICE - Not sure what type of voice do them, men like. But for obvious reason, I was a national debater with strong and calm voice and I know for sure that my voice is not that type of annoying 'ringing in your heads' type of voice.

HER SENSE OF HUMOR - Hehe, this one I am very good at. Okay, fine. I dont write humor here but I am very funny, okay! And I understand humor too. My then boyfriend (who is now my hubby) said that I was the best girlfriend one can ever have because I get along with strangers so easily and when he took me to see his friends, he didnt need to 'babysit' me because I was very fun and can just laugh along with his friends. Just like that. Well, I know.

HER MAINTENANCE - Okay. I am not so low maintenance but I am not high either. Hey, I do shop but that is within our budget plus I pay for my own stuffs too. Which man wants to date a girl who doesn't even shop to upgrade how she looks? They just say that they like low maintenance girl but the fact is, they too like to see pretty girl who are well dressed up. See my point? As long as we (girls) don't always give men headache to keep paying for our stuffs right? Once a while is okay. That reminds them not to take us for granted. People tend to forget small things once they have too much of it, y'know?

HER PERSONALITY - To involve in public relation field, requires a lot or persona, aura and personality. I am a woman with personality. I attract wise men. My boss said that I have this special aura that makes men and women listen to me when I talk. Although, that sometimes lead to some stubborn elements which is good in my career. So that people dont take advantage on you. Some poeple treat PR as Special Escorts. I know it is public but not that type of public that you can touch lah.

HER EYES - I have big alluring eyes. Not as big as Aishwarya Rai's. But pretty big. They are sexy enough for hubby.

HER HAIR - I have always kept long hair in my whole life. But last few months something from the dark side has possessed me to chop it off. Well, that something was really bad. And now I am so eager to grow it back. It is now shoulder length. Thought of getting hair extension but again, that will spoil my 5th point. Maintenance! Plus I heard that it is painful. So I will wait.

See, doncha think hubby is so lucky? Daniel said in his blog that it is REALLY not easy to find a woman like this. Ah, content! (perasan actually) :P

Read more: http://danielfranklingomez.com/

I had my first heart attack!

This morning, upon arriving his school, Isaac gave me my first heart attack (of being a parent);

Isaac: Mummy, Boy has to get married?
Me: Hah?!!!!!?
Isaac: Boy has to get married! *stressing a little*
Me: Ahh *gulp* urm okay. With who?
Isaac: With Mira.
Me: Oh. All the best!

Hmmmm, that was pretty easy to do. How come we had so much difficulties to tell our parents that we wanted to get married at early age?

For those who dont know how to cuddle (which is my expertise lol): I got this from FB

1. Step 1

   Hold hands while you're watching TV together. Snuggle on your significant other's shoulder, or into the crook of his arm as he puts his arm around you.

2. Step 2

   Catch a quick snuggle anywhere as you slip your arm around your loved one's waist for a nice hug. As long as you don't get carried away, this public display of affection will usually bring smiles to the faces of those around you. They'll probably think you're newly in love.

3. Step 3

   Learn the spoon position of cuddling. Lie so that the back of one person is snuggled against the front of the other person, like two spoons in a drawer. Wrap your arm, and your leg if you are so inclined, around the person in the front. This can be a very intimate position and very romantic.

4. Step 4

   Lie facing each other when you cuddle and you have the advantage of being able to look into one another's eyes as you talk and just enjoy the moment.

5. Step 5

   Give your partner a gentle back scratch while you're cuddling. Stroking the arm or hands of the other person is also a very loving and tender gesture. Just don't do it too lightly or it might tickle.

6. Step 6

   Ask your partner what they enjoy about cuddling and if there's anything you can do that would make the experience even more enjoyable for them. As with all aspects of romantic physical touch, the most important thing is good communication.

Happy Mother's Day!

Isaac made me two beautiful cards for Mother's Day.

I could not help not to cry *happiness*

This is my fifth time celebrating Mother's Day, for real! I never celebrated with my mum.

He knows me very well that he made me two adorable cards;

1. Rabbit / Bunny Card

2. Floral Dress Card

Final part of settling down!

That's my loving husband hanging our newly tailored curtain and me doing what I do best!;

Aku telah jatuh cinta

Mungkin aku pernah juga..
Merasakan cinta..
Tapi tak pernah..seindah ini..
Mungkin aku juga pernah
Merasakan rindu.. Tapi tak pernah… Sedalam ini
Mungkin kamu takkan pernah..percaya..
Bahwa sesungguhnya..aku telah terjatuh….

Good things happen when you are most grateful

I know I have not been writing writing for the past two weeks. I know.

Lots lots of things happened. Most of them are good things ;)

Purchased few stuffs by Marciano, CK, MNG, Topshop, Fusion & Bebe. I know, I am so spendthrift, but I couldn't resist. Just once this year, ok!

15 minutes away to lunch - off to see MIL for lunch. She is being so sweet these days; text me, hug me. I like that. You know, I am really a good daughter in law material. I just know that I am that sweet ;)




Updates on our house;

1. They are only installing the kitchen cabinet today. Supposedly installed last week, promised MIL to cook for today's lunch but too bad, there's always next time ;)
2. Will get them to finish up with the lighting tomorrow.
3. Ikea shopping on Sunday was heaven (but of course not so heaven for the wallets tho') ;)
   
4. Have seen the curtain tailor - curtain will only be ready in two weeks time :(
5. The floor is like orgasm :P
6. They will install the shower door this Friday - we both are big fans of DRY toilets. Can't wait!
7. More things to come!

Being grateful!

A sneak preview of our kingdom!

Meet my new baby

Amazing! Amazing!