Happy 5th birthday, my son!

Dear my precious son,

Today is your birthday. You are 5 years old and obviously you are a big boy now. Oh dear, sometimes I can't accept the fact that you are growing so fast. Who will listen to me talking rubbish when you have grown old enough to understand that what I share with you is nothing but rubbish?

It's been a while since I last wrote you a letter. I guess work has been occupying me. And I do realise that I spend less time with you for these past months. I often leave you with Daddy. I am so sorry. I really am. I thought that I needed to do all this so that you can have your favourite food, nice branded outfits and a fancy birthday party. Although, I still think that it is true.

Dear Isaac,

Today, I actually do not know what to write but I must write something. So that when you are able to read all these letters that I write to you, you will smile and come to me to give me a warm hug and nice kiss. I like it when you do that.

Like last night after I finished reading you bedtime story and you hugged me so tight and kissed me on my lips. I'd trade everything in to have that moment every night before sleep.

There are a lot of things that I learnt from onyang (your late great grandmother) when I was growing up which I want to pass on to you. And those are the things that keep me going and giving me strength to raise you up to become a good person. Like how I became (at least I do feel that I am a good person, by heart no matter what people might think about what type of person I have grew up to become).

Dear Isaac,

I want so many things for you. Everyday, I pray to God that He will make things easier for you in your life.

I want you to live with hospitality so that you will learn how to fight. To fight for yourself. To fight for the people that you care. And to fight for the people that are around you.

I want you to live with tolerance so that you will learn to be more patient. At least, to be more patient than me. Patience is very important my son. It makes you appreciate things that you've achieved after the effort you made.

I want you to live with encouragement. So that you will become confident. These past weeks, you keep telling people who tell you not to talk too much that the reason you talk a lot is because you want to become a lawyer. Like my Mummy, you said. And when people tell you that lawyers can not make a lot of money, you will encounter them back "then how come my mummy has so much money?". How adorable. See, that's what I meant by confident. You are always so confident even when others are not. But, remember my son. You can be confident but never over confident. That will kill our confidence and leave us with nothing.

I want you to live with praise so that you will learn to appreciate. Believe me, my son, this is very important.

I want you to live with approval so that you will learn to like yourself.

I want you to live with acceptance so that you will learn to find love in this world. Oh by the way, I just learnt last night that love isn't a feeling. Love is an ability and Auntie Bwooie says that love is also a choice. That, you will learn in couple more years.

Dear Isaac,

Mummy wants you to live with sharing so that you will learn to be generous.

I want you to live with honesty and fairness so that you will learn what truth and justice are. After all, lawyer is what you want to become, right?

I want you to live with security so that you will learn to have faith in yourself and in those around you. And to answer your question this morning, no there is no ghost my darling. Really.

I want you to live in friendliness so that you will learn that world is a nice place to live.

I want you live with serenity so that you will learn to have peace of mind.

These are what I want for you. Now tell me what do you want apart from the expensive kiddo laptop?

Love,
Mummy.

Make it last

When he first set foot with this Company, years ago, he was but a mere youth with huge dreams and plans. He began setting things into motion; building his career. His job scope, amongst others, was to implement The Company’s computer system – a feat he was immensely proud of, for it meant the world to him. A legacy of sorts – moulded from blood, sweat and tears. This became his life. A constant sacrifice, of which he surmised, was warranted for anyone who craved success.

I recall vividly through hazy days caused by sleepless nights, how he toiled so that this very ‘gem’ he built, would ensure The Company’s means of revenue is guaranteed. He became Mr. ‘Fixit’ – the go-to Man when problems arose. He went about in this pattern and not once took credit for such dedication. He did not need to he thought. This was his given duty, his vocation. Little did he realise that this, this selfless act would be his undoing.

He watched as colleagues took credit that belonged to him. Ah well, he said, It does not matter in the long run.

He allowed people to take advantages of him; they began to take him for granted.

Like a cat pushed to a corner, his mind began to race.

Was youth a factor? Or the fact he had neither voice nor conviction? Or perhaps, in the corporate jungle where promotions are forged via maligning others is the norm, he has not quite acquired such ruthless acumen?

As the clock ticked, seconds, minutes into hours and days, it dawned upon him that perhaps, it was now time to employ a different strategy. His superiors have to be made aware of his contributions, that this was his brainchild.

He discovered his self-value. His sense of worth.

Since the 60s, the discovery of self value represents a breakthrough in the fields of psychology and creative personality. 'Self image’ is the key to human personality and behavior. In a nutshell, you change the self image and you transform personalities and behavior.

To me, self image actually determines the level of accomplishments of an individual. A person with a strong self image but without tertiary qualifications will have a better chance of making it in life than those with paper qualifications but who suffer from a poor self image. Self image defines what you can and cannot do. When you enlarge your self image, you enlarge the 'area of possibilities' in a person.

So that's what he did; but ran into a wall, a major glitch. His superiors were still oblivious.

He asked himself, "What was it that I missed this time?"

Some people said, "You must believe in yourself first!”

Of course he believes in himself (duh!). He knew for a fact that the starting point for both success and happiness is to obtain a strong self-image (again it is a self image issue). Learn to accept yourself before you can really like others, or before you can accept the fact that you deserve success and happiness.

If that wasn't the concern, what was?

And then... he found out through the grapevine, that what was standing between his successes was paper qualification.

Eeeppp...

So do you think, once he acquires the necessary papers, he will be given a chance to forge ahead? Tell me. After all the hard work, image transformation and finally the (I hope) paper qualification, will he be given the chance? For real?

Subjective isn't it? Oh well.

This guy, he doesn’t believe in giving up. It is not part of his genetic make-up. So now he opts for trust. He chooses to trust them.

In the mean time, he is hot on the paper-chase trail.

Trust is beautiful. I myself believe that time fortifies trust. Well, 5 years is long enough (no?). When someone trusts you, you learn about honesty. When you entrust someone, you are in fact teaching him or her to be honest. Inculcate others to develop honesty by trusting them a little more each day. I truly wonder if the bosses are aware of this. Are they aware that they can gain more than hard work (or money) from their employees by trusting them? I hope they do.

They better do, I tell you.

How about encouragement? Is it too difficult to give a little encouragement to your people? A leader who gives encouragement to his or her people is actually teaching them to have confidence in themselves.

Hey, he does that! I know he does. He encourages his team mates, every single day, in his own unique way.

Everyone has their own way of getting things accomplished, right?

BUT, but this is the reason why the bosses think he is not a leader, because there is no staff development under him. Oh oh, did I tell you that the bosses have hired a new fresh guy to SUPERVISE him? Sorry, my bad. Totally forgot to mention this.

So yes, since there was no staff development under his direct supervision, they (whom he prefers to refer to as ‘team mates’) have been instructed to report to this new honcho, including HIM.

Hilarious, right? So now he is back to square one.

Further elaboration at this point would be an exercise in futility.

One of the bosses said, he needs to compromise. Haha, yeap. Compromise. Compromise your dignity. Compromise your respect. Compromise your life. After all, it is just a diagram.

Moving on.

His way of motivating his team mates was perceived as a weakness; therefore, he is not leader material.

Hmmm. I am a little confused here; I learnt that a good leader is one who motivates his or her people. An iron fist is never necessary when there are so many other morality-building techniques out there utilising patience and kindness.

But why does this make him a bad leader? The killer-instinct so admired by many?

Would it be fair if I say that he did his part to get them to develop their work skills? Yes indeed, albeit instilling the brand of discipline warranted by the bosses. (As if the other HODs managed to accomplish this. Duh!).

There are moments when I am not sure if he deserves to be treated like this. But he trusts the bosses. He trusts that if he manages to fix his shortcomings, his day in the sun will arrive.

Tell me if I am wrong, but I think he shouldn't be treated like this.

I think he should find his way out of this madness, and before he does that, he should go to these bosses, and ask them straight to their faces if their parents ever taught them the fine art of awarding merit when it’s deserved.

Mine did. His too. That's it.

Define success. Define failure.

By,

Yan Lim

October 28, 2009

Hard-work

"The world stands aside for those who know where they are going""

Yes, the world will certainly stand aside if you know where you are going and certainly pave the way for you if you know the path you are traveling, is the right one. Every leader knows there is one way to get to the top and that is to climb every step of the way, no short cuts or handouts, just sheer hard-work and perseverance.

I hate you ass kisser. I hope you will fall down from top there. And the reason you'll fall down is because you can't afford to carry all the credits that you stole from my hard-work. They are too heavy for you.

Toodles.

Rindu

Sangat rindu. Boleh kita berjumpa sekejap? Hanya ingin melihat kamu dari dekat.

Holla!

I am very sorry for all the negative energy that I involuntarily shared with all of you (through twitter, facebook, via phone or even face to face). The truth is, I am surrounded by too many people with negative aura which explains the mood swings and negative thoughts lately. My apology. Will get rid of them and will gain the positive energy as soon as I can. Toodles. xx

Threaten

Hubby told me that Issac knows how to threaten him already nowadays.

Hubby: *scolding him on something*
Isaac: If you treat me like this, I will tell Mummy not to marry you, okay Daddy?

Haha. Cuteness.

Influence

Influencing others is a skill, an art one ought to learn. While it is good to influence others, it must be done with utmost integrity. When you acquire this skill, you need to remember that influencing others in order to help them is the main objective. I call that positive influence.

Many go out there to influence others for their own benefits, then it becomes a win-lose situation-somebody is going to be very annoyed with someone later. Think of the consequences before you begin to put this skill to use. To me, I call that negative influence.

How can one apply positive influence? By helping others to gain something , without destroying part of themselves. I believe we are all special, I believe we can make it. If we understand our limitations, then we can work more effectively. I believe limitations will always be with us, we only need to learn to avoid getting trapped within these limitations.

Once we understand our limitations, we would have found our strength and with our strength we can move forward. I always say, when we go to the battle field, the first thing we should know is where our enemies are stationed, and once we know that, we are a step closer to winning the battle. Hence, know your own limitations, and you are in fact closer to accomplishing your dreams. You can, provided you believe you can.

Pardon me, for all this nagging. I have been listening to too much motivational talks by my boss lately.

Take charge!

When someone tells you to take control, it simply means take charge! Take charge of your life from today onwards, because life is full of surprises, some pleasant, some not so pleasant and there are a few that are quite terrible so the only way to avoid getting caught by those surprises is to control one's life better. Take charge, make sure everyday is a brand new tomorrow. One can go around thinking life is always very tough, and as a result, the toughness actually wears you out. No, life is not like that, in fact, life is full with great moments, and happiness. If only we would take better charge of ourselves, life would be more meaningful.

Toodles.

Superciliousness

Would you like to have what you want or to keep what you have?

Whatever it is, humans are filled with superciliousness. We feel that we want more but at the same time, we can't afford of losing what we already have. Why? Because we are afraid of the people around us. Afraid that they will talk about us. Afraid that the people will judge us. That's arrogance, okay. We are too arrogant to fall. We are too arrogant to let people to correct us. We are to arrogant to allow people to see us fail.

So what happened to the part 'we want more'? Well, we do not want to take the risk as the fear of losing what we have bugs us, correct? But what if we can have more and at the same time, we can keep what we have? Of course, need good strategy not just poking everywhere lah!

No? Not willing to take the risk still? Okay then.

Easy, just kep quiet and enjoy what we have. Stop aiming for more or better things. We are scared, right? Moreover, it is not our fault. It's the people around us who make us feel low confident. Remember, it's not our fault! It's the people. Afterall, do not worry, they will pay for our bills and I am sure they will always be there for us. Forever.

Until then, have a safe fun life.

Turn a spark to a flame

I couldn't feel much better
Than when
I'm here with you
You make everything
Seem so easy
I'm telling you the truth
You never try
To please me
But somehow
You always do
The simple things
You do to me
Simple things you say
I sometimes can't believe
It's for real

Bleeding

Can you see it bleeding? No? I should have guessed.

Holla!

It's been a while since I last blogged. Life has been pretty hectic yet beautiful. Too many things happened in our life. Some are good and some are not.

As for me, I like what's happening to me now and I hope it will last :)

Just came back from a week holiday at Kapas Island. And I'm back with 2 layers tan. Seriously, I look like a coal.

Apart from that, work has been uber busy. I can hardly have my own time in front of TV for the past few weeks. Study has been so-so. I have exams tomorrow night, but I haven't flipped thru a thing. Stuck at event today *yawns*. Hope it will be as easy as the last paper hehe.

Alright sweets, will write more when I have longer time. Love!

Orbital

Today is my day. When is yours?

I am purchasing this;




And this;


Click on pictures for the items' names

And no, I haven't spoken to hubby yet. Cause I assume if I wanna buy a LV then only I need to speak to him since these two only cost me USD536.

Honey, can ah? I tried calling you and left messages on MSN too *errkkkk*

Love you!

Have a safe fun life!

I have so many things that I wanna write but I just can't seem to focus in writing these days. Not that I have literally stopped writing because I still do. Emails, the fucking long emails *yawns*.

Work has been pretty hard to catch up. Just came back from Penang for a work trip. Then this weekend, will be going to Kuala Terengganu for another event. Then we will be off for a week holiday, hubby has booked a room at Kapas Island for us. Hope that few days will help me to unwind my mind.

The next weekend will be spent listening to my boss motivating people again. Hmm *struggling to open my eyes*. And, I assume mum is back from Germany. Didn't even call her. What else? My life is my career. For now, let me do this. For once, I am so determined in what I do. And I am not going to stop half way like I always did.

Oh yes, it's raining this morning. I love this lazy weather. Feels like London. Til then, have a safe fun life!

You were and are one of my favourite people in this world and your demise hurts me as much as it does to him

I am still moaning and grieving over the demise of one of my favorite people in this world, Yasmin Ahmad.

Whatever she liked, I like. Sensei, I will miss you dearly.

In the loving memory of my Yasmin Ahmad, here is one of her favorite poems;

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

Blame it on my mouth II

Hello. The other day, I was complaining that you are too soft. That you let people bully you. That you didn't fight for yourself. Of course, I was picking up a fight over you. You said, "not that I didn't defend myself. I did. But you didn't see it. You just don't like my way and you want it to be your way".

You were so angry that I use pressure over you. You said you don't understand how can I always feel more motivated to be better everytime I got pressured.

Hmm, I don't know the answer although I know that I don't like pressure neither. But I won't let others step on my head. No freaking way.

You also questioned on why did I even feel so aggravated when you were the one whom being bullied.

My darling, I just hate it. I hate to see you being treated that way. It hurts me more than you. I think, I explained that to you already. If you got what I meant, that is. But you were still very much unhappy. So I guess I didn't use the right words. Or maybe I picked a fight at a totally wrong time. Not that picking up a fight is right, at the first place.

So I promised you that you won't need to hear from me anymore. I meant, on this issue.

But nevermind, since I am thinking about you now, here you go; a few words from me :)

Do you know that you are such a talented man and I am not sure if you even realised that. Do you remember all the arguments that we had when we were dating? Do you know that everytime I saw you, I had so many things that I wanted to talk about. That I wanted to share. That I wanted to argue with you. I will use the opportunity to bring something up, anything, just so I could get into how your mind works, how you placed your words and uttered it carefully, on how you got me to think and pondered about anything. Hmm the magic. You were so thrilling! It's interesting on how much I enjoyed arguing with you. Just so you know.

My darling, nowadays you tend to lose your patience. You treat our arguments as something that you need to win. I miss to argue like those days. When we used to stand on our own words and yet we turned it to something delightful.

I love you.

Blame it on my mouth

I aimed to write a proper entry today but the usual laziness doesn't seem to run off. Or maybe the blues which occasionally comes to visit. Or is it, because of the way he treated me for the past weeks?

Til then, have a good life.

Rest in peace, MJ.

Liverpool vs Singapore Match tickets

I am looking for Liverpool vs Singapore Match tickets. Please let me know if you guys happened to have extra tix please. Or any contacts. Pretty please.

Hiatus

Have not been updating here. Currently updating on Twitter. Although I practically chatting haha.

Follow me there if you miss me, I know you do :D

Mist, Bangsar

So I finally went to Mist, Bangsar. No mood to write. But one word. Or two. Fucking awesome. Three words. Fucking awesome night!





Sorry for the harsh words. My vocabulary is not functioning. Tried to use the right adjectives but failed. Toodles!

No I am not happy with the color. Will surely re-dye after coupla months!

So I colored the hair. Red. No, didn't perm it, it was just a temporary perm. Mengada-ness!




And please excuse the meaty arms and the failed pout. Toodles!

Better

This picture was self taken at 4 in the morning; preparing for our big event together in 2006

I feel so in love today. Honey sent me few love songs. Just like the good old days when he used to email me romantic love songs and then printed out the lyrics on beautiful papers. Just to make me feel better.

So what I am trying to say is, everything that he makes, makes it better. And no matter what the days, with him here, it's better. Period.

Poladroid

A friend of mine introduced me to http://poladroid.net where you can download the software and start editing your pictures to poladroid format. Lovely kan?

Here are some I wanna share with you;
















Try this, sweets. It's fun :)

When the stilettos are off!

Last Friday night, mum called up to offer to take care of Isaac over the weekend. How lovely!

So Honey and I thought of going out to listen to some Jazz music, an interest that we have in common :)

And since Sam is in town, I gave her a call to join us. We met up with the lovely Sam, the boyfriend, Francis and Francis's gorgeous sister, Theresa who dropped by towards the end of the night. She just got back from work. Oh yeah, she is a hot air crew *grin* :)

We initially planned for a good jazz session at Top Hat but never knew that they have shifted and changed their concept. No more life jazz band playing unless specially requested and paid for :(

So we headed to Heritage Row. Ended up at Upstairs and then shifted to Cynna :)

It was a coincidence that everybody wore coats, except me. I wore my lovely long cardigan. That explains how related are we *smile*. We had such a great time. And it was not a secret for everybody in Cynna bar that night, that we were the ones who heated the dance floor up *lol*

Took my stilettos off after hours of dancing and continued dancing wildly.

Sam and Francis, thanks for the wonderful night. And Theresa, nice to meet you. The next time, we should sit down and catch up longer than that night *smile*.

Looking forward for the next session :)















Til the next time lovelies. We took off at almost 3am. Gotta work the next day :(

The one about bus

Isaac: Daddy, how come there's a TV in the bus but we don't have it in our car?

Hubby: Because Mummy will feel dizzy watching TV in car.

Isaac: Then, can Daddy buy a bus?

Hubby: Who's going to sit in it? So big.

Isaac: *He starts mentioning all his friends' and teachers' names*

Hubby: Then go where?

Isaac: School!

Hubby: Does it mean Daddy is your bus driver now?

Isaac: Yes! When I grow up, I will also become a bus driver!

Haha. Funny lil fella :)

Rain

I am enjoying my moment. Stuck in heavy rain near my old office, having a workshop later.

I'm smelling the smell of heavy rain. The familiar smell. The smell that I used to look forward to everytime December came.

This is the same smell that used to make me real happy when Grandma wrapped all of us with thick blanket and then made us hot Milo to drink with some fancy desert.

This is the same smell. The same feeling.

Still looking forward for this smell. Still loving the smell.

Hot Ice Lemon Tea

We are at Oldtown White Coffee having breakfast.

I ordered "One ice lemon tea please"

Then the guy taking the order asked like three times "You want hot or cold?"

ICE Lemon Tea! Of course cold la! Kane!

When we should learn not to hanky panky too much in front of Isaac

I was fooling around with Honey by digging my nose using his pinky finger and then I asked him to lick his pinky finger.

Then Isaac suddenly asked;
"Daddy licks Mummy is it?"

Haha, that sounds so wrong coming out from a lil boy, man!

Toodles now. Need to heat up the Tom Yam for dinner then Knight Rider afterward.

Stunned

I am stunned. Just received a bad news last few minutes.

My boss's wife is suspected to have 'Uterus Fibroid Cancer'. I have no farking idea what that is. He just told us that he is now at hospital with the wife and the wife is suspected to have 'Uterus Fibroid Cancer'. All I know is fibroids are the most frequently diagnosed tumor of the female pelvis. They are benign tumors. They are not associated with cancer, they virtually never develop into cancer, and they do not increase a woman's risk for uterine cancer.

So I am kinda hoping that after the medical check-up, the doctor can tell them that it is not 'Uterus Fibroid Cancer' but maybe just Fibroid or whatever that is better.

Anyway, I am praying for the best for her. I really do.

Be strong. Your family needs you. Especially the lil one.

Being married

Obviously, before we got married Honey knew that he was getting married to a juicy, smart, funny, loving, wild and adventurous girl. And I am sure he knew what was he getting into.

That is why, Honey has given me the green light to join the travel group to Bali sometime before year end (I can't confirm the time yet, waiting for Lyn to come back to Malaysia). And, Honey has also given me the gold baton to pay a trip to Dee Anna baby in Sydney in August or September.

That doesn't include all the nights out that I have been enjoying, at least once a month.

Oh, did I tell you that he wouldn't mind if I want to join my friends for drinks and a lil bit of dancing session after work as long as they can fetch me home safely?

Being married doesn't mean that you need to stay at home, take care of your kids and just spread your legs whenever your husband gets turned on after seeing a pair of big boobs or bloody firm ass. Being married doesn't mean that you have to forget all your friends whom you've known for a good decade. Being married doesn't mean that you need to end your life.

Being married means; you've got to enjoy your life like you have never did. To be loved, to be taken care of and to be understood by your beloved partner. And most important is to be able to be your own self!

This is me. I know what am I doing. My hubby knows what is he doing. So who are you to judge?

My understatement

I tend to worry about too many things. I get worried too easily. I worry about everything around me. So I thought it was okay when I got very moody for one tiny thing and then started crying for nothing. It prolonged for few months until I realised that I might suffer from post-natal depression. It was bad. It was the worse time in my life. I was young and I was not ready. But no one could be as lucky as I was. I had one thing that others didn't have. My husband.

I have the most perfect husband on this whole planet earth. He has always been there for me. Even when I started shouting at him for something that I did wrong, he will just swallow his saliva and smiled weakly at me. I was angry all the time. I was sure that it was just because of tiredness, only to discover that I needed help.

It's been few years now. I hope that when we are both ready to get pregnant again, I won't need to start worrying about this all over again. God bless us.

Annoying lil' creature

Isaac is so annoying nowadays!

Everytime Honey kisses me, he will come and give his cheeks to be kissed too and when Honey refused, he will annoyingly ask "Daddy only love Mummy? Daddy doesn't love Boy?"

Ah, annoying lil' creature! :P

My hubby is a VERY lucky man!

Daniel wrote about '8 traits that Men find attractive in a Woman' and I couldn't help but to comment on that.

I mean, if you can see me now, I am grinning like an idiot lol

I will just make it short here.

These are 8 traits that he wrote. I am just going to list down the 8 points. If you wanna know how the hell did that guy write that makes me grinning like this, go to his site!

HER SMILE - I know and very sure that I have a very sweet smile. I didn't make my own 'masuk bangkul angkut sendiri' conclusion but I heard that from many men and women too.

HER FEMINITY - For Pete's sake, I am very feminine. Really! Having more dresses than t-shirts and pants is considered feminine right? Right?

HER VOICE - Not sure what type of voice do them, men like. But for obvious reason, I was a national debater with strong and calm voice and I know for sure that my voice is not that type of annoying 'ringing in your heads' type of voice.

HER SENSE OF HUMOR - Hehe, this one I am very good at. Okay, fine. I dont write humor here but I am very funny, okay! And I understand humor too. My then boyfriend (who is now my hubby) said that I was the best girlfriend one can ever have because I get along with strangers so easily and when he took me to see his friends, he didnt need to 'babysit' me because I was very fun and can just laugh along with his friends. Just like that. Well, I know.

HER MAINTENANCE - Okay. I am not so low maintenance but I am not high either. Hey, I do shop but that is within our budget plus I pay for my own stuffs too. Which man wants to date a girl who doesn't even shop to upgrade how she looks? They just say that they like low maintenance girl but the fact is, they too like to see pretty girl who are well dressed up. See my point? As long as we (girls) don't always give men headache to keep paying for our stuffs right? Once a while is okay. That reminds them not to take us for granted. People tend to forget small things once they have too much of it, y'know?

HER PERSONALITY - To involve in public relation field, requires a lot or persona, aura and personality. I am a woman with personality. I attract wise men. My boss said that I have this special aura that makes men and women listen to me when I talk. Although, that sometimes lead to some stubborn elements which is good in my career. So that people dont take advantage on you. Some poeple treat PR as Special Escorts. I know it is public but not that type of public that you can touch lah.

HER EYES - I have big alluring eyes. Not as big as Aishwarya Rai's. But pretty big. They are sexy enough for hubby.

HER HAIR - I have always kept long hair in my whole life. But last few months something from the dark side has possessed me to chop it off. Well, that something was really bad. And now I am so eager to grow it back. It is now shoulder length. Thought of getting hair extension but again, that will spoil my 5th point. Maintenance! Plus I heard that it is painful. So I will wait.

See, doncha think hubby is so lucky? Daniel said in his blog that it is REALLY not easy to find a woman like this. Ah, content! (perasan actually) :P

Read more: http://danielfranklingomez.com/

Different world

Still on the same topic. High school and the past.

I have missed out a lot of my high school friends' weddings and engagement parties due to my own engagements. Feeling left out. But nobody's fault but mind.

Not that I have completely ignored my high school friends but apart from the really close ones, I kinda not liking the way the others bring themselves. Immature is the word to describe some of them.

They are like urm in a completely different world.

That was why I didn't invite most of them to my wedding. Not only because it was meant to only close family and friends but also because I was afraid that they couldn't cope with my current lifestyle.

Still, I am looking forward to attend their weddings or engagement parties if I am welcomed. So, do invite me if you want to have me on your beautiful days. Don't just jump into the conclusion that I am being lancee just because I do not mix around with you all. Send me the invitation first. Even if I cant make it to your big days, I will put effort to at least wish you the warm wishes or if you are lucky enough, I will invite you over to have dinner at my place. I am a nice person, believe me.

When we are grateful of what we have and not wanting to have more than what we should have

One of my high school friends tagged me in one of the high school class pictures in facebook. But I untagged it back.

The truth is, there are a lot of things which happened in my past that have been erased from my memory. Not by my consent but it already happened. So I am living on a limited sum of past memories by pretending that it is okay to forget few things. Those who have been with me through out these past few years might and might not know. But the ones who know, will not try to bring up the past that is out of my league.

I am not wanting to force myself to remember. So I do appreciate if others do the same too.

Although, I hate the fact that there are a lot more other memories that I would like to be erased which have never been erased. I will beg if I could but that's totally beyond my control.

To those who I don't remember, I am sorry. This is not what I wished to happen. Never did. Never wanted.

Morning Sky - on the way to work

Morning - on the way to work, originally uploaded by juicy yan.

I have the obsession over sky. I always have. Just that, sometimes the laziness that we have in us limits us from doing anything we like or from the things that we should do.

Here is how the sky nearby our house looks like in the morning. Abstract. Beautiful. Unique.

PS PS This is my first test post straight from Flickr to Blogspot. Amazed with what technology can do ;)

Busy Bee

I realised that I have been so busy. I seldom cook. I write blog from phone and I have abandoned The Juicy Closet. Help!

I had my first heart attack!

This morning, upon arriving his school, Isaac gave me my first heart attack (of being a parent);

Isaac: Mummy, Boy has to get married?
Me: Hah?!!!!!?
Isaac: Boy has to get married! *stressing a little*
Me: Ahh *gulp* urm okay. With who?
Isaac: With Mira.
Me: Oh. All the best!

Hmmmm, that was pretty easy to do. How come we had so much difficulties to tell our parents that we wanted to get married at early age?

Me no like this

I am feeling rather nausea and dizzy since yesterday. Plus I have been feeling more tired than usual. For the past few nights, I just let my boys do their own things while I just excuse myself to sleep. I even missed my favorite TV shows just because I felt too tired and sleep was the only thing I needed. Me no like this. I cant focus on my computer screen more than 1 hour without the urge to puke.

I love you, Isaac

Dear Isaac,

I have so many things to write about which covers my hectic working schedule, my beautiful love life with Daddy, about you in particular and so many other things. But that can only be done if I manage to sit in front of laptop and focus on writing without the itch to start clicking on facebook and kaypoh about my friends life *sighing out loud haihhhhhhh*

Oh by the way, facebook is this social networking page that helps Mummy to keep in touch with my friends and also a place to show off your adorable pictures to everybody. It is very in, you know.

Lil Isaac,

You are now enjoying your school. Everyday, once we picked you up. You will say "Mummy Daddy, it was so fun at school today. I........".

Your vocabulary has improved a lot. Your new favorite line is "I think the aircond is spoiled, there was weird sound, I think....., I think...."

You have turned into this polite boy. You ask for permission before you start doing anything. That includes sleeping in the car.

This morning while sending you to school, the thoughts came across my mind; You are very attached to Mummy and Daddy that you refused to join your friends at the backyard until you waved at us until we disappeared from your view. Daddy said that you wanted to make sure that Mummy and Daddy go to work.

You are one interesting kid, kiddo. Other kids your age will jump happily when their mummies and daddies left to work or anywhere. They want to spend minimum time with their mummies and daddies because they earn their freedom without their mummies and daddies' presence. But not you. You are always so attached to us. Even when you have so many play dates around running and jumping happily. You still come to either Mummy or Daddy to keep informing us that you want to join that boy in red shirt to play with other naughty kids. You always do that.

Now that you are enjoying school, I am afraid that I will not see a whole lot of you anymore soon. I am afraid that one day, you'll leave home early in the morning and just come back to shower and change before you go out again. I know, I will be able to see you at night but I am afraid that won't be enough. I will surely miss you. Now, I already miss you, but I know we have our own things to take care of. You need to catch up with your school and Mummy and Daddy need to earn money.

You've got to grow up and out and that's more important than clipping coupons, arranging stocks or selling pens at restaurants. You've got to learn what you are able to do and what aren't - and you've got to learn how to deal with that. You've got to learn about people and how they behave when they don't feel good about themselves - like Uncle Adam when he feels threaten by how well others treat you and then start bullying you. Yeah, you'll even have to learn how to pretend that name-calling doesn't hurt. It will always hurt, but you will have to put up a front or they will call you worse names next time. I only hope you remember how it feels - in case you ever decide to rank a kid who is smaller than you.

Daddy and Mummy are so proud of you that no words can help us to describe. The other day, while having dinner at your favorite Thai restaurant, there were this father and son passing by and holding hands. Daddy said to Mummy "I don't want the day to arrive when Boy will tell me not to hold his hands just because he is embarrassed in front of his friends". I know, that day will come. But for the record, in case you read this, can you please hold Mummy's and Daddy's hands as long as you can? That will really make our day, son.

However, it would be great if you can hold mine longer. If you notice, Mummy keeps sulking with you because Mummy thinks that you are more attached to Daddy. But Daddy said it's rubbish. Hmmm.

Last night, when Daddy was busy fixing the fuse that caused the black out, you hugged me so tight that I could smell your sweat. That was priceless. I wish that Daddy took longer time to fix the fuse so that you will be in my arms for a longer period.

You started to ask if you can go to Daddy the minute you heard the sound of keys outside. I wanted to savor the moment and you have already held Daddy's hands tightly to get to follow him outside.

I just wanted to say "I love you, son..."

P.S Mummy will buy you (more) Mentos if you promise to choose Mummy over your-fun-Daddy. I know I am not that fun but Daddy cheated. He has more strength to layan your funny playing habits. But not me. Unless you don't mind to follow me into the kitchen?

I tried not to spend (on pants) again but I failed

Me: Hello, baby.
Him: Hello, hunny.
Me: Are you busy?
Him: What do you want to buy now?
Me: What??!!! I just wanna speak to you lah! Don't la talk like that!
Him: I know you. C'mon, what do you want to buy now.
Me: I need RM300 to pay for the pants.

Happy Monday darlings ;)

For those who dont know how to cuddle (which is my expertise lol): I got this from FB

1. Step 1

   Hold hands while you're watching TV together. Snuggle on your significant other's shoulder, or into the crook of his arm as he puts his arm around you.

2. Step 2

   Catch a quick snuggle anywhere as you slip your arm around your loved one's waist for a nice hug. As long as you don't get carried away, this public display of affection will usually bring smiles to the faces of those around you. They'll probably think you're newly in love.

3. Step 3

   Learn the spoon position of cuddling. Lie so that the back of one person is snuggled against the front of the other person, like two spoons in a drawer. Wrap your arm, and your leg if you are so inclined, around the person in the front. This can be a very intimate position and very romantic.

4. Step 4

   Lie facing each other when you cuddle and you have the advantage of being able to look into one another's eyes as you talk and just enjoy the moment.

5. Step 5

   Give your partner a gentle back scratch while you're cuddling. Stroking the arm or hands of the other person is also a very loving and tender gesture. Just don't do it too lightly or it might tickle.

6. Step 6

   Ask your partner what they enjoy about cuddling and if there's anything you can do that would make the experience even more enjoyable for them. As with all aspects of romantic physical touch, the most important thing is good communication.

You can pee anywhere. Even in front of a hot woman like me!

I am busy but I just wanna update you with this!

Happy Mother's Day!

Isaac made me two beautiful cards for Mother's Day.

I could not help not to cry *happiness*

This is my fifth time celebrating Mother's Day, for real! I never celebrated with my mum.

He knows me very well that he made me two adorable cards;

1. Rabbit / Bunny Card

2. Floral Dress Card

Facebook has become cheapo?

I received few weird messages in facebook. Usually, I will just ignore them but some of them, I replied for the sake of being nice.

Some can get over board. Some are just lame.

These are some that I wanna share with you here.

First of all, what makes you think I live around Sydney?
Secondly, I already have one hella good lover so I don't need you to pleasure me (if you are even a man)
Thirdly, this is not high school anymore. I have stopped chatting with strangers since form 4.

What are those? Pick up lines gone bad? Or these people are just friendly?

Toodles!

We went to an eye specialist center located at Damansara Utama last two days and the optician has confirmed that I need to go through a minor surgery. Hmmpphh! *more money needed, I hate it*

On a happier note: I just got myself few pairs of working pants from Topshop, ZARA and Sisley. Nice ones :)

Although I am not sure when will I wear them. There are a few in the closet that I want to give away. Will do some spring cleaning this weekend.

And I am contemplating of getting the Dior sunglasses.

I should have not glanced my painful alluring eyes on them! I knew.

(I am writing from my mobile while waiting for my boss)

....I am contemplating

MIL invites us for some dinner party at her sister's house this Saturday night. Which we cant bring Isaac along.

I really want to go. But who's going to take care of him? This has always been our issue. There are few occasions that we cant bring him along (because of few reasons that only parents understand) therefore we always have to pass the invitations :(

Who can we trust to babysit him for a while?

*scratching head*

....I am contemplating. Should we get a maid? I feel like wasting money since we dont need a maid unless during times like this :S

Letter to our precious son

Dear my precious Isaac,

We have sent you to your new school this morning. We woke up early, daddy helped you to shower, and then daddy prepared breakfast for you while Mummy getting ready. You were all excited when we mentioned that you are going to a new school, you put on the clothes on your own and had your breakfast while watching TV. We left home at about 7.45 am. Stuck in major traffic jam, arrived school 15 minutes late.

There at your new school, you suddenly realised that it was real that you started crying. You did try not to cry (Mummy knows that, baby) because Daddy said you are a boy and only girl can cry but you still burst into tears.

Dear Isaac,

All we want to do is to bring you up to be a confident, responsible, independent, fun loving, compassionate, caring, creative and imaginative child. Mummy and daddy are totally devoted to provide you everything that you need. This new school will provide you a strong foundation before you start your primary school another 1 and half years.

Please enjoy your day time at school. Explore, discover and learn anything you can. You will make soooOOoo many friends that you will look forward to come to school everyday.

It was never easy for Mummy and daddy to leave you at kindie or day care or even at Grandma's house when we need to go to work but we do what we have to do, my darling baby.

Mummy felt a little reluctant to leave you there to come to work today but seeing that your new friends were kind enough to guide you into the group, it was easier for us (to run quickly to car before you realise that).

Take care, my precious. Mummy and daddy will see you after work.

Lots lots of love,
Mummy (who is very pretty).

Wendy's for lunch at Jaya One

Honey wanted to have Wendy's for lunch so I just tagged along with him and some other colleagues. I am not a fast food lover, I am a perfectly grown up Siamese woman who only enjoy Siamese food. Shoot me.

And today is pay day. No difference for me. Today might be the happiest day for some people, but not me. Unless they (the boss) feel generous enough to give me another BIG increment. Until then, not that happy. But I am grateful.

No. No comment about how the food tastes like. I will only make you feel like puking.

Final part of settling down!

That's my loving husband hanging our newly tailored curtain and me doing what I do best!;

Silly hamsap husband

Me: Honey, can you please help out a bit when we go to my mum's place later?
Him: I always do.
Me: No. You either sleep or sit at one corner and smoke.
Him: But it's boring there.
Me: But you can at least join me. Support me a bit. We are husband and wife!
Him: That means we can make love there?
Me: Whatever!

Blogging from my cool mobile.

Aku telah jatuh cinta

Mungkin aku pernah juga..
Merasakan cinta..
Tapi tak pernah..seindah ini..
Mungkin aku juga pernah
Merasakan rindu.. Tapi tak pernah… Sedalam ini
Mungkin kamu takkan pernah..percaya..
Bahwa sesungguhnya..aku telah terjatuh….

Changing Isaac's School

We are considering to change Isaac's school.

He is now at one kindergarten which is far from good. They don't practise what they put in syllabus i.e English as first language. So we are looking for another one which only communicates in English. Mandarin class availability would be an advantage. Also, it would be good if they provide some extra classes like music or swimming classes; just some other sweet advantages.

Also, it would be better if the kindergarten is combined with a day care. So we no need to fetch him during lunch hour to another day care. It is tiring for him and us.

Oh yea, he is now 4yo turning 5yo :D

Please let me know if you guys happened to know any good kindergarten+day care nearby Section 17 & 14, PJ or any nearby places. We really appreciate this.

Have you looked up the sky today?

Keeping up with Bwooie, here are some blue pictures for you;

Feeling kinky

Is this good thing too?

"I wouldn't mind looking into your beautiful eyes Thurs, Fri AND Sat. : ) "

Good things happen when you are most grateful

I know I have not been writing writing for the past two weeks. I know.

Lots lots of things happened. Most of them are good things ;)

Purchased few stuffs by Marciano, CK, MNG, Topshop, Fusion & Bebe. I know, I am so spendthrift, but I couldn't resist. Just once this year, ok!

15 minutes away to lunch - off to see MIL for lunch. She is being so sweet these days; text me, hug me. I like that. You know, I am really a good daughter in law material. I just know that I am that sweet ;)




Updates on our house;

1. They are only installing the kitchen cabinet today. Supposedly installed last week, promised MIL to cook for today's lunch but too bad, there's always next time ;)
2. Will get them to finish up with the lighting tomorrow.
3. Ikea shopping on Sunday was heaven (but of course not so heaven for the wallets tho') ;)
   
4. Have seen the curtain tailor - curtain will only be ready in two weeks time :(
5. The floor is like orgasm :P
6. They will install the shower door this Friday - we both are big fans of DRY toilets. Can't wait!
7. More things to come!

Being grateful!

A sneak preview of our kingdom!

Meet my new baby

Amazing! Amazing!

I love you too!

When most men out there surprise their loved ones with roses or diamond rings or classy expensive dinners, mine surprised me with some broken keyboards that composed 'Love you'

You've swept me off my feet, baby.

Thank you ♥ ♥ ♥

I am just writing to say that

I ♥ my beautiful life.

Everything seems to fall into places. So nicely. Will write more.

Hugs! <3

New Haircut!

It's his birthday but I got myself a new hair cut and treatment too!

...and apparently, I am getting a new handbag and make up too, tonight!

*laughs*



.

Happy birthday my awesome possum honey bunny!

Yesterday was Honey's birthday and I planned a surprise dinner a.k.a friends gathering for him. I wish more would have came ;)

It was flawlessly planned. Looking forward for much more good things to happen.

Guys, thank you :D

Honey, happy birthday! You are the sweetest, the most delicious man on earth! Loving you, that's the best thing I can do.

Men's most desired skirt?

Little Precious

My loving sister has finally given birth to a loud, precious and gorgeous baby girl at 11:10pm last night at Ampang Hospital. We waited for her to give birth until got chased off by security guard. It's hospital's policy not to allow visitors after visiting hours :(

She gave birth when we already got home so we will wait until off work to go and shower the baby girl with kisses and of course to snap hundreds of pictures ;)

Meanwhile, here are some pictures of Isaac and my brother Avele Adam;

On my recent sick leave, I...

....admired the twilight at our current house for the last time,
....I drank hot milo in a plate like how Grandma used to teach us (because it wont be so hot this way, she said),
...and I promised that I will be more health conscious and finish my dosage

I was feeling chipper and all this past weeks although a bit perturbed about the slow pace of renovation. You know the feeling of being so excited, of making plans and day dreaming about how the house will look like and then got very stressed because of few things that don't turn up how it'd be. I knew, I couldn't be too upset about the slowness cause that will only ruin the excitement so I was being pensive and at the same time, trying to rush everyone to get their things done.

We have packed up. Appointed a lorry driver and asked for some friends' help for the moving in-out process this Sunday. Everything was well planned. We are going to stay in our master bedroom (which is half revamped) and temporarily put all the other boxes and furniture in another empty room until everything is ready. We know it will very inconvenient but we want it that way. One, because we do not want to waste money paying for next month's rental at the same time paying the house installment (double house payment) and two, we think it's great to stay there and watch the ongoing renovation being done (from scratch to tadaaa!).

But today, when I called to ask for our cheque (to settle all the payments), I received bad news. The money's trapped. They are unable to pass us the cheque as promised by this week. Because they are waiting for their boss to sign it. To sign it!

They promised us; 'Friday is the latest, maybe by Wednesday can get'. So we waited. And then without any sense of formality to call and inform us, they simply delayed it to another two weeks maximum time. Ah. To sign the cheque. Just to sign the cheque.

So we called the lady who is incharge for the money but she refused to pick up the call. I asked for her boss instead. The boss said she will get her to call me back. So she did.

'I cant give you the xheque today,'

No ''sorry''. Naadaa! And then still got the guts to tell me that TNB hasnt fix in the electricity in our new house yet.

'Next week only can do.'

Right......

So what happened to our plan to move in this Sunday? And where will we be staying since notice has been given to move out this Sunday?

Grrr.

Earth Hour

Save our earth. Show that we care. This Saturday March 28, 2009 between 8.30pm to 9.30pm, I will be switching everything off and make love to my Honey for the last time in our rented house and if we are happened to conceive on that night, the baby will be a millionaire baby (just like Merdeka babies) lol

Do participate in Earth Hour's symbolic but meaningful Global Black Out this year, babes.

I will annoy those who don't participate :P

When I used to write miserable posts in my old Multiply account

I was doing some spring cleaning to my inbox when I found this post that I wrote in my Multiply account last few years;

'Why are you doing this to me?' I asked, at last plucking up the courage to speak.

'Because I need some space,' was the terse reply from him. That was all that was said during our on and off relationship. I was overcome with fear and confusion and battling within myself not to cry. Why was this happening? What had I done to deserve this? Who was there for you when you needed a friend to talk to? I badly wanted him to snap, then come and get me, I wanted to tell him it was all a mistake, tell him that he was a self denial, give me a big hug and take me back to the happy moment again.

O'boy I think I could write better last time haha ;)

Love, there's ups and downs

I miss

It's so close for me to kill people today

I hate it when people do not understand a thing but claim that they do.

I don't give a damn if by saying you-do-when-you-don't does not affect me.

But when you made me believe that you have fully understood that thing and made me moved on to another thing and then, you did something very stupidly wrong that made the management think that I did not train you well or do not know how to train, I feel like poking your ass hole with a hot burning steel bar.

Fuck. I lost my points because of people like you. And I might not be able to be home next month because of your being-too-stupid-that-it's-too-difficult-for-me-to-teach character!

I just wonder how stupid can a human with brain be. Le sigh!

Photoblog

Wonder Pets!

"Wonder Pets! Wonder Pets! Kami datang! Membantu anak kambing dalan kesusahan. Kami tak besar. Dan kami tak kuat. Bila bekerjasama semua jadi mudah!
Hei, Wonder Pets! Yey!"

"Wonder Pets! Wonder Pets! We're on our way. To help a baby goat and save the day. We're not too big. And we're not too tough. But when we work together we've got the right stuff!
Go, Wonder Pets! Yay!"

(Heee, that's one of son's favorite songs. Sorry :P)

He likes it so much he hates it when either one of us try to sing together. lol.

Anyway, last night at One Utama, Honey pointed at one small boy with blonde hair. Chinese kid to be precised. It was obvious that the parents colored his hair to which Honey responded;

"Crazy ah? Damaging the kid's hair like that. If me, hell no I will do that to Boy. He has the most perfect silky soft hair ever. And nice skin too"

To which I countered;

"Yea, I asked him the other day if I can exchange skin with him. And he said "NO!!""

Happy weekend everybody! I am so excited for weekends. Lotsa house cleaning, packing and renovation to do!

How to calm itchy pussy?

Never knew my writings can lead to this kind of thing;

















How? Scratch it?

lol~

crap+ass+hole

It's been a busy day and I am feeling like crap.

So what if I do not want to accept your money and sleep with you? Asshole.

I miss my loud loving grandma.

My late grandma screamed, shouted and yelled. But with love. Don't ask me on what basis do I categories the screaming, yelling and shouting as loving. Cause I never knew. I just felt it. She had two daughters. My aunt and my mother. Two girls who grew up watching her screaming with love. Both of them grew up to be deeply affected by this habit.

My aunt was born to be the most perfect mother on earth who will shout and then hug her kids.

My mother, on the other hand, yells, shouts, screams, shrieks and everything. Then she will say harsh words that often make us feel like we are the shit unlucky kids. Followed by sticks or hangers on our bodies. It is all identical to me. She will just throw stuffs like plates, pots, or anything near her when she's angry (she claims that she gets that from her mother which is my late grandma). I last received this after high school. And now, my youngest brother is her current victim.

Thankfully, I don't shout. And I am very loving. Let's hope I don't get the 'shouting' genetic from them as I grow older. If I do, let's hope it's from grandma or aunt.

I miss my loud loving grandma.

Hunting Unicorns

"It's wrong to say that time is a great healer. It isn't. What happens is that you get used to things. It's a question of survival and to survive you adapt"

This is my favorite part of all time. I was actually thinking to write about this part this morning in my emo post and then Daniel brought that up :)

Read this. It has always been my favorite book. Hee...

déjà vu or a dream

I woke up this morning thinking whether it was just a dream. And then I saw the haunted box, lying calmly on the side table next to me.

Whether or not it was a dream, it disturbs me. Badly. How hard I try not to think of it, I still do. Everytime I see Penang plat number, or when I see anything that relates to Penang. Anything that relates to hotel room. Bed. Blanket. Or anything. It can be, asam laksa. It can be satay. It can even be any type of Penang food or Penang people. Or places in Penang. Sometimes, it still happens when it doesn't even relate to Penang. It's getting worse now that the same date is approaching. I feel like déjà vu. I feel like I have the same experience of feeling sure that I have witnessed or experienced this. I can produce a complete script and a movie out of my thinking. I can assume what happened and keep thinking about it. My heart will start to beat so fast I can feel that it's going to pop.

I am just a little girl lost in the moment. I'm so scared but don't show it. I can't figure it out it's bringing me down. I know. I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show.

Be content like I should. Like this.
one must have loved, then unloved, then love again..~Aimy

The Show by Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle. Life is a maze and love is a riddle. I don't know where to go. I can't do it alone. (I've tried) and I don't know why

Slow it down make it stop or else my heart is going to pop 'cuz it's too much. Yeah, it's a lot to be something I'm not

I'm a fool. out of love 'cuz I just can't get enough. I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle. I don't know where to go. I can't do it alone
(I've tried) and I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment. I'm so scared but don't show it. I can't figure it out it's bringing me down I know. I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight. The people follow the sign and synchronize in time. It's a joke. Nobody knows. They've got a ticket to that show. Yeah. I'm just a little bit caught in the middle. Life is a maze and love is a riddle. I dont know where to go. I can't do it alone. (I've tried) and I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment. I'm so scared but don't show it. I can't figure it out it's bringing me down. I know. I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show. Oh oh. Just enjoy the show. Oh oh

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle. Life is a maze and love is a riddle. I dont know where to go. I can't do it alone. (I've tried) and I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment. I'm so scared but I don't show it. I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down. I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

Dum de dum. Dudum de dum. Just enjoy the show. Dum de dum. Dudum de dum. Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

We never know what's coming for us

It's been a busy few days. I thought of updating yesterday but time didn't permit me.

We took leave on Friday to settle our house process. Woke up early, drove to Shah Alam, then Kajang, then SS2, then PJ State before we zipped off to KWSP office at Jalan Gasing. Didn't manage to settle everything because the lawyer's office was inefficient (hoping to settle the last document tomorrow during lunch hour). After dinner, we decided to watch Slumdog Millionaire, it was awesome. Out from movie, we found our left rear tire flat. Felt like kena sabotaged :(

From One Utama, we decided to go to PJ State to require some help from Simon. Honey was not confident that he could fix it himself but after three petrol stations of pumping air, Honey decided to change himself at Jalan Gasing BHP :)

Even though it was our first flat tire experience, the spare tire got fixed in 15 minutes tops by my awesome possum Honey.

The next morning, woke up early, went to workshop to get it changed and costs us RM205/tire. Haih! Then off to our new house to meet up with interior designer and electrician. Managed to decide on the lightings and kitchen cabinet design. Had three sets of McValue Lunch at RM 5.95/set. Then went to Ilanee's house to visit lil Ruusunen. Movie at 10.45pm. Dragonball Evolution sucks but kinda entertaining!

Today, woke up slightly late around 11am, Honey made breakfast and we were off to see our interior designer to finalise the design and to confirm the materials.

Had chendol and rojak for lunch then went to Ikea to buy the 'promotion' lights. Then to Uptown to survey more lights and to Amcorp Mall to get my handbag fixed before the sky started to pour. It was a heavy downpour. Stuck there for a while. Got home, fell asleep on Honey's lap while watching TV. Got up last one hour, had chocolate cake and now typing this :)

Had a productive weekend. Tired but content. Though tomorrow is a working day, I look forward for what tomorrow will bring us.

Note: Oh by the way, I learnt that women will live ¾ of their lives in bad mood as there are Pre-Menstrual Stress, During Period Stress & Post Menstrual stress. That means, we only have ¼ of our life time to feel happy and not to scream at nothing. The other three have been taken by the evil period. Ah, I hate period.©

Trouble-shooting!

Reached office an hour late this morning cause I worked super late last night. Our office is quite flexible. Those executives and above levels who are not entitled for OT, are allowed to come to work later (a bit) the next day if they work until late, the night before.

Honey helped to plug in my power cable, network cable and on'd my lappy. I sat down, straight away opened my Outlook. This is my favorite part every morning. Reading work emails :)

There were 10 emails regarding our Bangla office.

Failures! Problems!

Shit! (started swearing#%@^*%$@#!!!!)

Me: AC, we have problem. Biiiiiggg problem.
AC: What? What happened?
Me: We are not getting the current office premise. They said it's too long to obtain. Maybe in couple months more! So they are sourcing for another office.
AC: Shit!
Me: And they need at least a 3000sqf office lot. But they can't find anything suitable but the place that Mr. Tan said the feng shui is not good. Anddddddd they said they are going ahead with that one!
AC: No! No! It is confirmed that it is not good feng shui. Write to them. Shoot them. Tell them that management wants them to clarify this matter.
Me: But they will say that I am kaypoh!
AC: No, they wont. I ask you to do this! Later when SY comes in, you go brief her about this. She will surely jump.













I have troubleshot them. Now I am blogging, waiting for my boss to come in. Ah, what a morning! I need my Milo now.

Letting go

I got to thinking - maybe it's time for me to let go.

Apparently, I look so much better giggling. I figured, it was not worth it. Prolly I was blinded by my own immaturity. Or insecurity.

Which SEXY am I?

1. Place to be: Beach
2. Valentines' Day Plan: Riding on the backs of dolphins to the tip of Antarctica to hang out with penguins.
3. What to wear: A low-cut satin gown and dangling earrings.
4. He is most sexy when wearing: A designer suit and tie / White tee with jeans.
   
5. How to sweat out: Dancing
6. Sexiest Body Part: The lips.
   
7. How to define sexy for men: The way they make out.
8. My cat's name: Oliver.
9. What to record on a limited space disc: Something on one of those "late night" channels - you know, the ones your parents are always trying to "lock."
10. Game: Pool.
    

My type of sexy (classic sexy):
The sexy you exude is the black satin, roses and wine sexy that's all over the romance flicks. And your crushes will love you for it.

The nice thing about this breed of sexiness is that it's totally recognizable. Classic Sexy is the universal language of sexy -- bust out your suave, romantic gestures and the honeys will be able to read you loud and clear. Here's the downside: after a while, it gets a little predictable. So be sure to mix up your routine with some creative stuff every once in a while. How about Funny Hat Day? (Nah.)

I can't wait

I can't wait for so many things to come into places. Can't wait for end of this month. Can't wait to withdraw the money. Can't wait to start shopping for house stuffs. Can't wait to start planning for the many house-fixing appointments. Can't wait to start packing and unpacking. Can't wait to buy the red sexy carpets. Can't wait to sit down with the architect to finalise the house designs. Can't wait to step into the long-awaited dream house. Can't wait to see the result of our very own sketch. Can't wait to shop for furniture. Can't wait to tick off the to-do list. Can't wait for loving sister to give birth. Can't wait to hold the surely gorgeous baby girl. Can't wait for so many things. Ah, this kills.

I am so excited. Like a mad cow.

Shopping, eating and working at Jakarta, Indonesia

I just got back from Jakarta last night. Went there for a three days-working-trip. Shopping was madness. I splurged money & swiped credit cards (again) for shopping. Not for TJC but only for myself, Honey and Isaac.

Ah. Gotta evaluate my shopping habit.

But anyways, had good time there. Food was great. Shopping was better. Didn't really had time for sightseeing but will definitely head there or Bandung in the near future. This time will bring my shopping bags carrier :D

My first time flying by Air Asia and first time at LCCT as well.
Not impressed. Hope the ongoing renovation will change my impression.

Nasi Padang. Pay for what you had and touched system.

After a whole day of shopping.
This is at Taman Anggerik Shopping Mall located at West Jakarta.

Went to Mulia Hotel Lounge for some drinks and music after shopping

Here's half of what I managed to shop in one day :D

Before boarding at Jakarta International Airport.
Was trying to capture the green scenery at the back but couldn't ask much since asking a stranger to snap this picture. lol

The view I admire

That's Malaysia for you! I am guessing that's PD :S

Untll next time, Jakarta!

Ovulation Calculator

Based on my ovulation answers, I'm likely to be most fertile from Thursday, February 19, 2009 to Tuesday, February 24, 2009. If I were to get pregnant during that time, my due date would be Sunday, November 15, 2009.

Hmm, anyway these are the dates (fertile days) that you do not want to call me out at nights cause I will be busy having sex. If I am home and not traveling lah!

So if I want the due date to be similar or close to my birthday, I should do it on May 14, 2009 to May 19, 2009 . If I want my due date to be same like or around our wedding anniversary and Isaac's birthday, we should do it last week (which we did) lol.

Fertile days	Resulting due date
March 19, 2009 - March 24, 2009	December 13, 2009
April 16, 2009 - April 21, 2009	January 10, 2010
May 14, 2009 - May 19, 2009	February 7, 2010
June 11, 2009 - June 16, 2009	March 7, 2010
July 9, 2009 - July 14, 2009	April 4, 2010
August 6, 2009 - August 11, 2009	May 2, 2010

Have a good weekend folks!

He has always made us proud

Everyone is amazed when Isaac says "please" and thank you". And sometimes when he greets people "Hello", "Gong Xi Fa Cai" and "Happy New Year".

We, as parents feel more than proud. Proud that we managed to set a good example and proud that we have managed to encourage him to do so. Oh, maybe this will only be understood by parents. Perhaps for some people it's nothing. But you will really be surprised that it is not easy to do this. Believe me. It took us a lot of effort, examples and praises. I have been to places where I saw other kids having trouble saying "thank you" when receiving gifts or something from other people even when the parents try by saying "so, what's the magic word?" or "what should you say?".

When we first taught him, we used this type of approach too. We asked him "hey, what should you say to Uncle Choo?" or "what's the magic word, baby?". We also told him, that people will like him more and give more stuffs if he says "thank you" and "please". He likes the idea. So after a while, he picked up and now he is very good at it. He can say "thank you" and "please" without us need to ask him to say these magical words.

And by showing good example, it really helps a lot. Honey and I show our love. We love each other and we express the feeling. When he is going out, even to downstairs to pick up something from car, we kiss each other and say "I love you". That shows Isaac that it's a beautiful thing to do because everytime we do that, he will also repeat the same thing. He will come to me and say "okay Mummy, I am following Daddy yea. I love you".

When I ask for his help, I will say "please". So that he knows everyone should say "please" not only him. In fact, he has been advising his aunt who is my elder sister to say "please" when she asks anything from him. That is just adorable, right?

We praise him a lot. We make it as practice to praise him everytime he does something good. We will say "Aw Isaac, you are such a smart and good boy. Mummy and Daddy love you so much".

Most important (beautiful to me) is whenever he thinks he has done something wrong. He will quickly say "sorry" even if it was really not his fault. In one occasion, Isaac accidentally knocked his head over mine while playing "boxing", so he said "sorry Mummy. Boy loves Mummy". I mean, isn't that wonderful to hear your baby say "sorry" to you without being forced to, like many other kids? I know many parents who will force the kids to say "sorry" whenever the kids misbehave in front of others because they (the parents) feel embarrassed. But I personally think it's not right. The kids will learn that they must say "sorry" because they are forced to. Not because they should.

"It's far more important to teach empathy than to force a child to parrot hollow words"~Brown Braun

I am just sharing my beautiful life so I hope I don't offend anybody by this writing.

God bless.

This is my warning

I found out that my husband's ex, Miss Chan Sook Quin or also known as Sookie came back from overseas. Called, SMS'd, emailed and tried to work something out with my husband behind my back.

I don't know what else she or they did. And I do not want to find out. Cause it has passed. But woman, I tell you now. Openly. That, we are married. Go fuck another guy, will you?

He has made it clear that he's with me. Stop your fucking nonsense and go bake your bloody cake for somebody else.

Oh yea, ferfucksake if you didn't know that he was already/is married to me (cause I know we don't go and shout around telling people) , at least you knew he was with me. But yet, you still did that. Shameless fucking bitch.

That was a while ago. Not recent. But I just found out today, so I will throw my anger today.

Yes I am angry. Anybody dare to stop me?

Who's to judge?

Sentiment or rationality?

Today, I am feeling very agitated. Half of me is so sad and angry and another half is forcing (as hard as I can possibly think) to let go.

What right does a human have to hurt others' feeling. Particularly, a woman hurting another woman's fragile heart. I am trying not to hate cause the fault can possibly be mine. I am trying to accept one's past so that I can move on with one's future.

I also know that ever famous saying "past is past". Oh, very well.

So it's very much my choice. Sentiment or rationality?

Valkyrie

Went to watch Valkyrie last night. It was deep and good. Never knew that the attempt to assassinate Adolf Hitler and free Germany from the Führer's clutch didn't succeed hmmm :(

Making decision sucks

So, I am offered either one of these or a washing machine by Honey. Help me out please?

Ten things or less

Ten things that I hate the most

1. Reptiles
2. Being away from Honey
3. Needing money
4. My legs
5. My hair now
6. Lies
7. Men who bitch
8. Slow people
9. Sad ending
10. Period
11. Needles
12. Death
    

(okay okay. Ten things or less. Well, I always have the tendency to push it)

Ten things I want to keep until I die

1. My family
2. Greeting cards from people who appreciate me
3. My hard earned furniture
4. The first mobile from Honey
5. My beautiful dresses
6. My ring
7. My watch
   
8. Everything Honey has given me.

“Oh please sit down, how do you do, this job’s for me, the rest is poo”

Some people said that all the beautiful girls can have life for free, but I don’t want to be a beautiful girl. I want to pay. Oh yes. ^lol^

This. This whole thing. It’s not my obsession anymore. I am retired. One thing I am sure, I am not setting my foot here anymore, on my craving. We live, we work, we are just getting started, we’ll never see each other again.

Later babes. I love to hang but it’s school night. Que bueno!

Day 14: I am sick or stupid?

I was trying to make some Milo after vomited various times when I overheard this conversation between my CEO and my GM in living room;

CEO: How is she? What did the doctor say?
GM: She is okay. No sickness. Nothing. But she has been vomiting continuously for too many days.
CEO: See, I told you that she will be okay. Look at us (bangla), we never fall sick.
GM: Yea.
CEO: That's why I told you not to take her to 'real' private hospital. It will only cost money.
GM: That's true. The clinic was good enough. She didn't even know that haha!

Hmmm so I was taken to a chekai and cheapo clinic not 'real private hospital'? And he is right cause I REALLY didn't realised that.

What can I say. I am the stupid one.

Day 14: Science has proven it

Nothing much to say about the medical report. It says, I am perfectly healthy. The first one said, I have sepsis. This one says I am healthy. Honey insisted for the 3rd one but I say, no I am not going to give more blood for them to consume.

So I just vomit for fun. And this fever is not real too. The body aches because not enough walking in malls. And the itchiness, maybe because I am lack of sex.

Later babes!

Day 13: Second Blood Test

I just got back from hospital. We went to the same hospital but different doctor. Better I think cause he insisted to do 5 type of blood test. Voila!


The first row of five containers (or urn? *lol*) of blood is mine :)

Blood taken twice already. Let's see what's in my body. Going back there in 1 hour to take the medical & blood report and for another consultation.

Painful a bit heee *lol*

Later babes!

Don't worry, be happy

Here is a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don't worry be happy
In every life we have some trouble
When you worry you make it double
Don't worry, be happy......

Ain't got no place to lay your head
Somebody came and took your bed
Don't worry, be happy
The land lord say your rent is late
He may have to litigate
Don't worry, be happy
Lood at me I am happy
Don't worry, be happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry call me
I make you happy
Don't worry, be happy
Ain't got no cash, ain't got no style
Ain't got not girl to make you smile
But don't worry be happy
Cause when you worry
Your face will frown
And that will bring everybody down
So don't worry, be happy (now).....

There is this little song I wrote
I hope you learn it note for note
Like good little children
Don't worry, be happy
Listen to what I say
In your life expect some trouble
But when you worry
You make it double
Don't worry, be happy......
Don't worry don't do it, be happy
Put a smile on your face
Don't bring everybody down like this
Don't worry, it will soon past
Whatever it is
Don't worry, be happy

Self motivation.

The Thirteenth Day of Being Away. The Twelfth Day of Being Sick

Good day!

I am off to another private hospital soon. We can't trust the previous doctor so my CEO decided to bring me to another one. As promised, I have finished up my last dosage last night. Fever is still bugging me. Vomited until the sink got jammed and caused my GM to call for plumber again this morning. Scratched the whole body until bleeding. But yet, still here and smiling *grin* :)

Later babes!

Itchy!

I am having very severe itchiness. Whole body is full with this;

I thought it's mosquitoes' bite but then it started to be watery and very itchy especially at my thighs. And to think of it, I wear long tights to sleep so it can't be mosquitoes right? Let's pray for me okay? :)

And this is my meal for today's lunch wheee :))))